David, we are so sad and so sorry that dear sweet Apollo had to run off to the bridge yesterday. You were in our thoughts and prayers all day yesterday. You are in our thoughts and prayers as you try to cope with this huge loss. Fly free, sweet Apollo, we will always remember you. Hugs and love. Peggy and Laila
Peggy, Laila and Angel Minchie
Thanks Peggy. Of course I am going though the gambit of emotions and self pity right now. The "I murdered him" and "How will life go on" and "I miss him so much" thoughts mixed with knowing I was trying to be humane. He had been going down hill since his sisters death, and I just did not want to talk about it much here in an attempt to not deal with it emotionally. He developed high blood pressure and was on medication for that, he had teeth/mouth issues and was too old the consider surgery, he had pemphigus and was in meds for that, diabetes, and renal failure. He weighed what he did in 2004 in the end and hard a hard time eating. The last days he was given chicken baby food, and he loved it. I pray he was happy in the end. My heart is broken right now.
David and the CoolCyberCats
David, how could Apollo not have been happy in the end with the awesome and wonderful, loving home you gave him all those years. I so remember when he came to live with you guys and that's going back a long time and that's a lot of time to for us getting to know him and love him too. You did the right thing for him. Always remember that.
David, I'm so very sorry. We sure know that range of emotions. No matter what we do, it never seems like enough, and sometimes it seems like we've done too much. CCC is always the very first thing I check every morning and of course, Apollo's loss is the very first thing I see. I couldn't resist going back and listening to Apollo saying "Hello" and re-reading his history. November always seems like a rough month. That's when I lost Poof.
Cheri was really, really sick last night, in pain and whorfing into a trash can. So after a couple hours of sleep, I got up and got the kids ready for school, then went back to bed. Our sleeping hours are a lot diferent, and we only sleep together a few hours a night. Today I got up around noon and she was gone but her car was still here. I'm thinking her mother must have come and either taken her shopping or to the hospital. They often go shopping but they usually take Cheri's car. Her phone and purse are gone and I've been trying to call and text since I got up. Given her symptoms, I don't think it's the cancer. I think it's kidney stones.
Of course, I'm worried to death. The local hospital is little more than what they call a "bandaid station". For cancer treatments she has to go to Columbia and neither of them will drive there, so she'd be here in town. I'll be calling there in a minute. Not just mine, but a lot of people's lives would completely disintegrate without her help. Since she got sick, I've taken on just a fraction of what she does for everyone and it's staggering.
If I'm right and this is just kidney stones, I'm sure she'll come through OK, but between the cancer treatments and trouble regulating her diabetes, she really doesn't need this.
OK, Cheri just called. She's being admitted to the hospital and she'll call back when she knows what room she'll be in. It wasn't kidney stones. It's a non-cancerous mass on her adrenal gland. (At least it was non-cancerous when we first found it.) But it has grown and is causing the pain. So, a whole new set of worries. I'll try to keep everyone posted. John
I am sorry about Cheri. I am glad it is non-cancerous, but sorry it is there at all. I hope they can quickly and painlessly take care of it. Please giver her my best.
John, so sorry to hear about Cheri. I hope everything goes well for her and she will be in our thoughts and prayers. Peggy.